Diary of Rosie's Ongoing Journey of Self-Discovery
Close your eyes and take a deep breath, whatever it is you're facing, tell yourself that "this too shall pass"
Hello dear readers!
*trying to make up for long hiatus* I’d like to start off this blog by sharing an amazing song I’ve (re)discovered recently (Korean and English versions linked above). The soothing melody has been a great source of comfort to me as I’ve struggled through the recent dramas and traumas life has hurled my way.
It has been an ongoing journey of self-discovery, recently there have been some major life hurdles for me, it’s been exciting, nerve-wracking, worrisome, confusing, stressful and just a jambalaya of emotions. I’ve been trying to take a step back and give myself the grace to figure things out. As I mentioned in my note earlier today, I think I’ve managed to find a state of serenity with myself and the universe now.
My takeaway from recent events is: no matter what I go through in life, I absolutely CANNOT lose my sense of self. What matters most to me? What actually defines me? How are the things I’m going through affecting me? Are these changes taking me farther away from or closer to the person I want to become?
Once I finally have answers to all these questions and more, I feel like I am truly in tune with myself and at peace with where I am. I guess maybe I’m a control-freak in some aspects, I can’t stand venturing out without a plan, I need an overview of what the whole picture is at least, or else I feel like I’m always on the verge of a panic attack.
As my dear sibling said, “you’re the type of person who’s like: ‘it’s not clean until I clean it,’ and then as you clean, you complain: ‘why am I the ONLY ONE who does anything?’ ” This is apparently a very Virgo trait…but I’m a Capricorn…but it still makes sense ‘cause I read somewhere that Capricorns are the head of the twelve astrological signs, hence have the qualities (for better or worse) of all twelve zodiacs, bwahahaha XD
Anyways, my final conclusion is that I am and always will be a respectable, high-value woman with boundaries and I don't need to overcompensate, take any BS, or settle for anything less than I deserve.
Ha, now I feel ready to take over the world! Or not…actually really not interested…I mean, just think of what a huge load of responsibility that is, so tiring and burdensome and underappreciated…kudos to all those with ambition to take up leadership positions.
I’d much rather just lounge around and chill out in my own little bubble, come out when I feel like it with and chat with my friends. A life free of the heavy burdens of responsibility, where I’m free to wander the earth with a sword and jug of wine, ah yes, that is the life I aspire to!
(image courtesy of Google images; rough translation: Swordsman - a jug of wine in hand as I wander the mortal world, a sword is all I need to trek the ends of the earth)
In true 江湖 (jiang1 hu2, a Chinese term that can be roughly interpreted as the ancient martial-arts-pugilistic world) spirit, I’d like to recommend a recently aired C-drama I’ve been super into:
That’s all for now dear readers! Stay well and healthy! Remember to love and care for the most important person in our lives: ourselves!